Those Wasted Days

Every now and again I think about you. Wonder if it ever got easier. Wonder if the negativity paid off. Wonder if anyone ever cared as much as I did. As I still do. I remember the good times and bad. I remember the time we stayed out all night, and how we didn't sleep. I remember all the times we talked all day and wasted time just being us.  I remember all the things I wanted to tell you. I remember the time we had popsicles on that corner. I miss the way we used to fit together like puzzle pieces. Maybe I just thought we did. Maybe it was just all in my head. Maybe I wasted tears and feelings. Maybe you felt the same and were afraid I would reject you like all the others before. I used to think that I would always hate you and never want to hear from or about you, but as time passes the bad and hurt passes and only the good and nice remains. Do you ever remember or wonder? 

Goodbye

Somedays I wonder what I did without you. How I got through my day without thinking about you, talking to you. I can't even go one day without talking about you. I feel like I wait in the lull of conversation to say something about you. I've decided though that this is it. You can't have me anymore. This is my heart letting you go. And I hope, nay, I pray you are happy with who ever you chose. I wish you love and warmth and all the happiness in the world with her. I know that this is going to hurt. Hurt a lot. But, I know this has to be done. This is a step to self improvement. I can't be hung up on a guy who feels differently than I do. I know you still love me and still care, I think that maybe what's so painful about letting you go. There will always be room in my heart, maybe a smaller place than before, possibly even berried alittle for my well being and sanity, but will always and forever be there just for you.