Drugs

She twirled around again. Flashing an actual smile. God, I said to myself, how is she so happy all the time? It was almost five, I could barely keep my eyes open.
"Come dance with me!" she called over the pulsing music. I shook my head. I didn't want to ruin your fun. And I didn't. You shrugged and sauntered back to the dance floor.
I ordered another drink. I was already drunk, but felt the buzz leaving. If I was going to do this I needed to be right sauced. I checked my watch. Five fifteen. Another ten minuets, then we go. I motioned to you. You were so reluctant, but agreed. I pulled you close as we walked down the avenue, laughing and holding hands.
People looked at us. I didn't care. I had you with me. That's all that ever mattered. That's all that ever mattered.

Broken up

You seem like u wanted to talk to me...but at the same time you didn't. Maybe it was the distance I put on my face. Maybe it was the fact that I feel sexy, and look the part. Maybe your scared of me. I fucking hope you are boy.

I have a huge urge to go sit in front of you. To be an even bigger bitch. You told me not to talk to you anymore and I'll stick to it . It wasn't my fault. I guess I'm not over this. And it's not so much the fact that I liked you. I am over that, I'm just not over how you ended our friendship.

And how we talked that night. You told me about what it's like to be dieing. What it's like to have most of your life over. I can't get over how sweet and tired your voice was. I bet you were on a lot of medication. But you powered through that to talk to me. Whatever.

I hope you stare. I hope you notice how short my skirt is, and that my pink bra is poking out a little. I hope you notice me. I hope you are hurt that we can't be friends anymore. I hope that you can hear how cool my music is, how the beat pumps up and down, in and out, back and forth. Fuck you.

Everlong Rapper

Everytime the door opens its like I have swallowed a new butterfly. I remember the softness of your skin, and the sweet taste of your lips. The warmness of your touch, and the deep forever in your eyes. You lust. And I lust.

But I can't anymore. I've grown up. I've learned to live with the fact that I can't have you anymore. I don't know how well this will go for you. I hope it goes well for me.

Please understand. There's always going to be a place for you in my heart. There will always be a deep connection between us. And I care for you deeply. I want to see you succeed, cause when you get there, I know your just going to explode! Your gonna have so much fun! And meet new people, and and, eventually forget about me. I hope you don't. I hope we will be friends.
I hope you don't forget me, forget us. How awesome we were together, and the fun times we had.

You have high expectations for today's hot tubbing adventure. I do too. But not exactly the same. I know that it's going to be a big disappointment for you. And I feel really bad about that. But you had your chance. I wanted for you. And it feels like forever ago...

Tommy Boi

I hate to see you anywhere. It just reminds me of how unfair you were. I just tried to be your friend. What did you do to make your girlfriend so suspicious? I know I didn't. So why did I have to be blamed for it.

My makeup looks really good today. It makes my eyes really pop, an you can really see the green in them. I hope you notice. I hope you see me and regret how you unfriended me so harshly, you told me to never talk to you again.

How did it feel to have the doctors take away your life plan. You and everyone though you were going to die really soon. How did it feel to have your life "given" back? Did it make you realize how the rest of us feel? That you only have a few years to get a good career, and to find a wife to make good kids. Does it scare you that you have so much time left. Such a contrast. Welcome to the real world. It fucking sucks doesn't it? Do you even remember me?

I'm not going to let you ruin the rest of my life. I have moved on. I cant let you ruin everything. Your nothing to me now. Not a friend. Not someone I want to love, not anything. And your going to stay that way. Because you won't take it back, and you can't take it back. Ever.