i dont really have a title for this. lets just go with...

k so u heard that new song by Jesse McCartney? oooo its rilly gooood! i loves it. it has this weird thing on certan words, and he sings in the right tone, then over it in a weird note. know what i mean?


so ya im doing the quote thing. i love the two nerds on Drake and Josh.
"yeah, girls are crazy. thats why me and craig dont have girl friends."
"i'm pretty sure there are MANY other reasons you dont have girlfriends."

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous,
talented and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be?

k so i love that one. i heard it on the movie about the little girl that could spell. um...oh, Akeelah and the Bee. Good Movie. i like that coach dude. he a really good actor.

consider this a letter i never sent.
how ever inconsiderit it seemes
do you consider me?
consider me the girl you laughed with,
or learned to live with out?
I SUCK. i know im late.
i know you waited.

so we all know that Disney is good for little kids. but have you ever really thought about the messages they send those little kids?
like take the princess movies. what are they about? right...about a girl getting the guy. wanna know what so wrong now? ya that dosent always happen in real life. and another thing. they never show how the dude is feeling.
k so they did in sleeeping beautie, but what! like you dont just see a dude in the forest and know you;ll marry him. thats phycotic! its like walking up to a guy in that mall and you both just happen to be singing the same "self-prodused" song at the same moment. and what is with the songs? who dose that?! i dont. i dont think my friends do! well meatoaf has an exception (he's weird...).

"I just punched a WEARWOLF in the FACE!!!"

im not sure which twiligh book that is from...i wish i did, and hope it wasnt Jacob...omg he is so hot. even if he did have a really gross picture of him spitting. Ha HA nin...you were totaly thinking it! lol ( <- that was an inside joke. you have to be us to get it.)

As long as you want me, im here.

i think edward and bella both have self worth issues. like they both do that thing.
"im not good enough" but its not just like once and a while. ITS THE THEME OF THE BOOK!!!!! ok so he's a vampier. GET OVER IT ALREADY! you've had a hundred years to get used to it. why do you have to keep bring ing it up now?
But ya. its so bella's falt with the whole jacob thing. why is every one like, "piss off jacob! shes edwards!" she started it dont forget! the beach...member, the eyelashes thing!!

whatever. im done now.

lay it on my girl...

k so me and my friends all have drama. Nicky has her boyfriend or Alex. personaly i would just ditch the bitch and say fuck off! she had him and now hes Nicky!! althought i would never say that about Cody. eww. then theres nin and ryan. their not dateing(THANK GOD!!!!!) but hes like al wasy...distupting time she has with her boyfriend Matt. and...ummm, well theres another one, but i dont think i care all that much. Jarets happy wit his girl and all i hav to say bout ryanis fuck off you dum ass shit head! no one really cares!
anyway. so im incareers right now. the class with those guys that were being really ...mean. i really dont like them. nicky is pretending to cry cuz she says im mean, but i said im just honest! i am. if i think some one is annoying, ill tell them. y hang around them? if they are being a bitch, or a dick, ill tell em! they should know.

Random Ranting!

OMG i would love to be a Ninja! that would be so kool! and maybe ppl would STOP making fun of me. if i were the fourth Ninja, i would be...hmm i don't know...i would like to be Rocky's girlfriend thought!. hes so cute! and maybe Japanese! kool!

anyway. so ya. theres this guy that i meet at my old church's youth group. he was so cute! he was wearing a green shirt and wearing a blue hat. i do know his name. i just don't want to say it in case i jinx's it. hes really nice!

um...i dont really have much else to say...just hey Jordan! Love you boy i wont mention the name of...

i miss Jimmy. he was soo kool! im sad hes not on Degrassi anymore. :(
dude! i saw this Video, they make them. there like Digrassi minis. like what if situations. there was one, and Emma and Jay traded personalty's. omg i laughed my weenie off! it was so funny!

but this one i saw was really good. it was called what if Jimmy was never shot. so instead of jimmy getting shot Sean did. it starts with jimmy getting accepted to come really good school on a basketball scholarship. and Elle and Sean are talking. then they get invited to go "clubbing" with jimmy, spinner, and Craig. Sean flips out and is like "you want to go to a club? they not gonna let me in the door!"
and Elle is like "you don't that..."
Sean flips even further by saying " you think some , some fancy door man is gonna let me in in this?" he pushes back and revels...( dun dun duh!) that hes now in a wheelchair. he was so sad. so after that, hes like...
"im sorry. i didn't mean to be such a jerk, its just that every one seems to have everything going for them. and im stuck in this stupid chair."
aaawww. finaly Sean has a personality that not every one hates :D
i love Sean in this. i think hes such a whiny jerk in the normal Degrassi.


ooo but theirs this new character named Kacy. hes so cute! and hes mysterious! he did something really bad, and now hes in a kinda group home, and if he has any new violent outburst the judge will send him to juvy. ok dose anyone else see whats gonna happen? like hello! you just told us hes going to go to juvy! aaww poor Kacy!
:(


ooo another really funny one, well ones. are Marco and Page. they do random copys of shows on ctv. omg its so lyfaotd able! i've only seen LOST in degrassi, and 24 hours on the couch. both are so random and funny!


well now that my rndom ranting is over. i say goond night.

SNOW DAY!!!!!

so anyone who is anyone is not here. which is school, BORING. well not today. im in Mr. Burchat's room (aka a computer lab!). hes so kool. he lets us do what ever as long as we are quiet, hes helpin me with math. even though i dont hav it anymor....but wut ever.

The window fogs from my breath
My face pressed up close, up close against

so my sister didn't mess the movie up too bad, it still got the good part, well its my favorite part. its when they go to Bobby's house in Bosten, and the dumb brother calls the police, but first logans lookin in the frige and he's takin beer, and the family walks in. omg i laughed so hard!! the look on the dads face was priceless!

Catching the snowfall under a beam of streetlight
And praying for accumulation all through the night

so ya its funny cuz there are like four other guys here, one dosent talk very good english (well nether do i, well in the last sentence..) and the other three are slapping the monkey.... ya dont ask.

These confrontations puncture the skin
Reveal evidence that you are easily broken
You're so easily broken

the radio is on rilly loud. theirs like this new girl, wow wut a day for a first day! i would lone to come on a snow day! i think the song playing is by cold play. OMG i love that new video with them as pupets! its so funny.

Exposed and relentlessly bleeding from the cracks
At that age when everything is seemingly life or death

so ya, yall know tht i love pyro...i think...anyway. ya so im gonna do a story bout him and this new girl, like post X3. i hated X3. like what happined to pyro? he got hit on the head and, like, POOF! hes gone! that rilly ticked mesa offa. (YAYJAR JAR!!!)

Please let the snow swallow the streets whole
Keep the bus from coming

man all those new fangled music sounds the same. its like im leaving but wait for me. if a guy asked me to do that i'de b like "ya sure buddy! you want me to wait while ten other guys want me....ya sure!"

Let us stay at home
So we can avoid the daily drudgery
The cruelty fueled from laughter that will echo in our sleep

well i have nothing else to talk about. da ta ta, la da da.

Seasons, weakening the hold
The blades dulled from the frost that hints the snow
Warming engine slowly turns
Stuttering awoken from the sounds of shovels scraping concrete
At that age when everything is seemingly life or death

so i also love Degrassi! but its on when i go to youth group. last year/season it was on on mondays, so i could watch it, but now its on just when im at youth group. but i can watch it on much music, so im not to sad. my favorit charicter was jimmy. im so sad he left. he was soooo hot! i liked rick till i found out how much of a dick he was. Terri was the nicest kid ever, and he did that stuff to her! like wtf? he had problems. anyway. i also liked spinner, but in like .... a ...charicter way...if that makes sence.

Adrenaline fuels my
Fist grinds my teeth through sleep
well ya im done now..... and my friends diched me.

JUST FUCK OFF!!!!

ya know what? forget what i said about loving my sister. she is the devil in a bag of loser shityness!!!!!!! GOD I HATE HER!!!! i was recording the second X-Men movie so i could watch it later, and she stopped it to watch her dumb shit head tv show, that i have to watch too or else i get sent to my room because she is um happy, the little prick. i know that my "mother" and her are related, how you may ask? well they both love to make me miserable, and boy do they do a good job!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO PISSED RIGHT NOW!!!!! she (my"mother") makes me do things with the youth group, even thought i told her I DON'T WANT TO! and she makes me do thing i DON'T WANT TO DO! like the Emassias thingy, i would have rather gone trick or treating WITH MY FRIENDS THAN SPEND MY NIGHT WITH YOU!!!!! Halloween is like my favorite Holiday, and i had to spend it with my mother! i hate her, i hate them!!!!!! God just smite me down now, im begging you, just make it stop hurting....

CREEPPPEEEEYYYYY!!!!!!!

all boys are stupid! right now im sitting beside the DUMBEST boys in the history of ever! They think that women shouldn't have rights, OH MY GOD! i think they should be detained back to stupidvill and get their weenies cut off! GOD!!! they then had the nerve to talk the rest of the class about how women shouldn't have rights! I KNOW!!!!!! like what is in that small brain that makes you think that that is an ok thing to say?!? i seriously nearly pulled a Hancock!!!! UUUUHHHHGGGGGGG!!!! and i also found out that some of their creep friend are creeping my blog....ya i just called you jerks creeps!!! gawd they all suck. i walk home rite, and every day i can usually hold the break down till i get to my room, but sometimes i can only hold it till i get to the other side of the front door. i slam the door of my room , turn up some loud rock, and scream and rash(bitch while crying, yes it is my own word...i fink...) about how i think that they are so mean and i don't know what i did to hurt them so much that they have to be so mean. that usual goes on for an hour till my mom comes home and yells at me the rest of the night how im never gonna make it to gr 12, and how im a lazy bitch. so, HEY YOU SHIT HEADS! piss off, k? i get put down enough! i have no self esteem, i may look like im ok, but trust me, IM NOT!!!!!!!!

PS not all boys suck, just most at my school.

In Gym Class

so ya i realize im a total loser. a blog. i know. i think im just getting the full idea of how loserish i am. like im not famous, im not all that kool, and i have like no life. i dont even thing my friends are reading this. wow im kool.

anyway. so i dont have a story right now. well i do but its at home, and im at school...ya get the picture? im supposed to be doing this thing for gym class, im to like write down what i eat for like a week, then do an essay for it. BORING! plus my info is locked up in the teachers classroom. great.

i had a history essay due on friday, but i didnt have my USB stick that i saved it on (i left on the floor of my room, and was very luck that something didnt eat it. i swear that there is something else living in my room!)anyway.

so i haven't talked to my cousin Sean for a while. its kinda weird talkin to him though. and i do realize that he will read this at some point....anyway, its weird cuz i haven't seen him for like...eight years, then i see him at a funeral, and he acts like we are best friends. im still trying to figure out if he just hap pins to be high when i talk to him. but what ever. i like to talk to him. he gives....cousinly advice. ya thats what to call it.

anyway, i should start to pretend that i have been doing what i should have now.

Picture Perfict

his eyes could only watch her from his distance. he stroked her soft skin gently, so warm and tender. his face was set as stone, cold and hard. they never really liked each other. she was right into this photo shot, he wanted to be anywhere but. her mind only went to the polls where she was higher because of him. she moved her head slightly, the photographer had a feailday.
"that is the one, that is perfect! James, i do wish you could look a little more...here." he went back behind his computer screen. he wanted to knock every thing off its place, just get it away from where it should be, then watch them scramble to interpret his actions. but he didn't, his agent, like me knew anything had told him to behave. so inhaled, and he held Keira closer. He decided to just look at her shoulder, not really knowing where else to look. The last shot was taken and he sighed heavily and quickly pushed her away.
“excuse me?”
“what?” he turned to give her the complete 'I seriously don't care or like you, so I defiantly don't care if that hurt your feelings' look.
“did I do something wrong? Why would you think its alright to treat a lady like that” she did a wave of her hand that strangely brought thoughts of star wars.
“well if you were a real lady, I could.” he made sure that his voice was mean and she would get that he hated her more now. more because she took away the one thing he had with his wife, and she took it. how could he for give her? this was something he would never forget!