iight, so today was so totally suck ass! ok, well me and that guy i like made out....in the girls room...ya so this girl was creepily watching me, and i had just said that it was kool to come out, i was so wrong. so i waved, before he came out, i thought she would just see me waving then look away, she didn't, so i pointed in the other direction, too late. she saw me and him leaving together. and then had the nerve, and kinda of the stupidity, to ask, so she goes, "hey what were you doing in the bathroom Toast?" firstly i wanted so bad to be rude, and i was stupid and said "what are you talking about?" when i should have said "what do you think dumb ass, going to the washroom..." but i did say "weird-o" as i walked by, so i feel somewhat proud of myself. but i didn't see my prince today, so i felt kinda lonely. :(
but because of that Damn girl i got a good idea and wrote a good short story. i think its pretty good. i also have started to wright verses, not like to a song, but just little rhymes. i don't know if im gonna write that story on here. i might write an after story too. like the part i wrote is the beginning then theres this big ass story behind it. but i think that s all for now.
Oh i have lately fallin in love with Robert Pattinson's singing. hes got this tone in his voice, that is almost annoying, but i love it! it just has so much soul! but what ever. i also like The Wind Blows by the All American Rejects. the lead singer looks like the bff of the guy i like. he's really good looking too. anyway...ya i know thats all...

Certain people you just can't trust, you know Luke?
Never trust anyone who doesn't smoke pot or listen to Dylan.
Never trust anyone who doesn't like the beach.
Never, EVER, EVER trust anyone who says they don't like dogs!
You meet someone who doesn't like dogs you alert the authorities IMMEDIATELY
you sure as SHIT don't MARRY THEM!
(The Wackness, Dr.Squires)

ok so i don't really know if i was talkin bout this before, but i am now. mostly cuz it was epic!!! ok so i really like this guy, hes three years older, and i just found out that he is only staying at school for one semester, but hes gonna work, hopefully he will still be in town! anyway, so i hung out with him at lunch, and he was so hot. the koolness started when i noticed he had obber kool teeth. he had VAMPIRE TEETH!!! like how freakin kool is that shit?! and then he asked if i wanted him to BITE me, i said yes of course. omg i was orgasming! he put his hand on one side of my neck, then pulled me close, and he bit me, but it was sweet, and gentle at the same time, i mean it hurts now, but its good cuz i keep thinking of him. so after he bit me (and two other girls, but he only asked me...*smiles*) the two other girls asked him to take off his pants (joke from yesterday) and so they struggled while he sat there not helping (tee hee) and so they kinda gave up, and i suggested that we go out back. he agreed. so we went back, and the girls (my friend and a buds gf, i know rite!!!) so they obsessed about that, then we just kinda sat and talked.

the time of the lunch break soon expired (omg awesome diction rite!!!) and so we started to talk of skipping, if He was. so he came back(he was getting money from someone for something...?) anyway so he came back and said taht he was going to class. so i was like ok. but the other girls are like "Nooo let us rape you!!" and hes liek no i want to go to class. anyway so he and i convinced the girls to let him go to class by me putting on a cute-sy face. and asking him to escort me to class. *blushes*
so as we walked to class i said he was cool..for something i cant remember what it was. and he was like, "Nah your cool" and put his arm around my shoulder!!! and i just giggled. (slaps myself in the head, i just realized how gay that was!!!) and i was like ya well your cool cause you bite me! and he said that he would bite me EVERYDAY if i wanted. i didnt want to seem creepy and go "YES OMG YES!!!" so i cooly said i'll think about it. so later i wrote a note(when i came back from cloud nine!!) and i said i would very much enjoy him biteing me (weird i know, but i really like him, and it feels soooo kool!!!) and that i appogyse for my friend and that other chick for being weird. i gave him the letter and he walked away. i felt nervous and have ever since i gave it to him, and the thought of hanging out tiwht him again. now when he bite me he didnt break the skin, but it left a mark, it looks kinda kool!

me and my boring life...

so at in grade nine my mom was totally shocked by the fact that i could do anything well in school. the fact that i was doing really well in english, math , and drama was unheard of to her. my english teacher had to tell her to stop saying "oh my god really?!" it really hurt. but i never told her. i never tell her anything. you see if i did she would get mad at me so hence i don't talk to her. but she gets really mad that i don't talk to her, so when im mad i yell at her and she has no idea why. so your thinking, "you and your mom should go see someone. well we are. and i have to lie there too. if Mark asks me something my mom will jump in in the middle. she doesn't get that im trying to tell my side. she always makes it about her, and when i do tell her about my problems, she doesn't understand or lets me go for a second (no more or i may start talking about what a bad parent she is) then starts to relate my problem to a completely unrelated topic at her work, of which i really couldn't care less. i mean who makes there kid listen to random crap about work? like its so mean...but omg she is so dumb. and totally uncaring.

i am sixteen and i have only had one drink (like alcohol) in my life. and it was just a sip of my aunt wine. i have never been to a real party. my life is so boring, and so...secure even a priest would tell me to lighten up on the church crap. like i do go, and i don't mind that, its just i don't want to have to go to every meeting that the frigging youth group has. and my mom thinks that if i were to go to a party i would get really drunk had have sex and get pregnant. like piss off! i can take care of my self. you have been drilling the crap about sex offenders and stuff all my life, I KNOW! i just want to be a teenager. and its so not fair. that i have to be so...alone. all my friends are allowed to go out and stuff, but my mom is like, "no i cant shelter you from fun if you are out of the nest!" i swear, if i was a plat my mom would be like "oh no don't grow roots, it means your growing up!" well guess what, I AM and there is nothing you can do about it! so just leave me alone mom, i don't need you anymore, i have people in my life that are better equipped for your job, and i intend to use them.

hello my few random readers

hello i am back. sorry about being gone for so long but i really had nothing to write about. totally boring summer. i have very little to say. just that i no longer am going to talk about boys, yes i heard that cheer. shut up. T.T

omg so this summer i have fallen in total love with none other than, Nutella! i love that random crap!

oo i also have a Gecko now. she is so cute.

so ya i have nothing to say.
oh no! what if i cant write blogs anymore. maybe i justneed some drama. well i hope to make some soon. ill try to up date at least once a week. loves you ppl that really read this, unles your a jerk, then you can shove ur oppinion up yers!!!