not done yet, NIN HELP PLEASE!!!

k. so its been like way too long. i know. i really like the song Gives You Hell. OMG, i did this thing, it was to see how my brain works, and the dude said that i have like not mild, a little owrse than mild learning disabilaty in math. and that it would be good to get , hold onto your chair, NEW LAPTOP! im so happy! it will have Dragon tooth, its a program that typs for you when you talk into it and it will type, and it will have corswell...i think thats w=how its spelled...you scan in a book or something, and it will read it back to you. anyway, ya. im watching Americas next top model. i'de like to try that show, see what happens. that'd b fun.

Alex Evans, a touch topic, well i wish i could tuch him...

thats Alex. the pic is from his site, alexevans.net hes really cute! but he dosent know i exsist! i really want to change that tho, so im writing a blog about him, he has a blog too! alexevans.net

i hopt hes ok with me telling every one that, if not...im sorry Alex, its just that your so unbleavably cute!!!! *kisses pictuer of alex* *then sobbs* mmmmaaaahhhhh, i want him, but he lives in montral, its like a good number of horus away! well alex, if you google your self, i hope you see this, and i love you. along with all my friends that follow my blog, and posibly my cousin, not sure if he sees this...if you do sean....im NOT a loser!!!

He Died (Part two)

ok so i know im back way too soon for me...but im really geting into this...so here is the continuation, but its still not totaly finished yet. and now that im talking...omg EXAMS!!! i hate them. and my second one is on Heaths Death day! im gonna do so bad, ill b thinking, Heath i love you, and not of the 1200 french verbs!!!

"hello?"
"HEY! Oh my God! Im so sorry I didn't believe you before! You really know him, OMG!"
"ya Nin, whats up?"
"well you told me to call, and I did. And was not disappointed."
"um, ya I got to go now, but ill call you when I get home, kay?"
"uh-oh! Did you two get into a lovers spat?"
"shut up!"
"ha ha, ok ok, talk to ya later."
"kay bye" she hung up the phone. Heath was in the kitchen making something. He looked up at her awkwardly. he nodded at her, and she back. That was the real apology. He went back to what he was doing, and so did she. They had never kissed, only hugged. They had held hands, and snuggled. But no kisses. She wanted to kiss him thought.
"hey do you mind if I come back later?"
"why? Did you and your mom get into another fight?"
"ya, it was he-uge!" this was not the first time she asked to come back after her daily cleaning. She and her mom got into fights a lot.
"do you mind if i stay the night?"


OOOO cliff hanger!!!!!! this is dedicated to my one and only reader! love you!!! well plus Heath.

He Died (Part one)

so i know i have been gone for a long time, oh none-existing readers! Anyway... I wanted to write something for Heath Ledger, with it being so close to the one-year anniversary (4days, Jan 22) =( i loved him so much. anyway, i am now going to pretend that i knew him, and may have been going thought his mind. enjoy, oh never seeing people!

He looked up as the door bell rang. "ding,ding,ding""coming!" he yelled annoyed again. why they couldn't just leave him alone was beyond him. half the people he knew didn't come around anymore. his mood was deteriorating at a constant rate lately. he quickly glanced through the peep-hole. sighing he opened his door to a small girl. "hey boo! sup?" she came close and hugged him. she smelled faintly like a mixture of strawberry's and pomegranate. she was wearing some kind of scratchy wool sweater and a long skirt. her hair was down and as curly as ever with a thin band around her forehead. "so whater' you doin'? she was always wanting to know that."i was reading a new script. it was for some ..." he stopped realizing her focus had shifted from him, to the mess allover his apartment. she bent to pick up a dirty shirt. she held it close to her face and sniffed."OH MY GOD! do you know how to use a washing machine?!?" he chuckled as she set to work cleaning up. she didn't know why it was so important to her to clean and take care of him, but she knew that if she didn't no one would. she was actually afraid to leave him for more than three days. she knew he would say something some day and she wouldn't come back. he knew too. "guess what my friend thinks." she said feeling the awkward silence go on to long.
"what?" he looked at her with a sideways glance then looked back to his script.
"she thinks that i go to some random guys house and say its you. i took that picture to her, but she still said that i was faking it. maybe i should bring her here and-"
"NO!" he yelled, she nearly jumped through the roof.
"sorry. ill clean up first...whats up with you lately? like why are you so tense...?"
"its, just never mind."
"no i want to know, this has gone on long enough. What has crawled up your butt and died?!" she looked at him with the look she sometimes gave when she was really ticked off.
"i don't know, im sorry." he turned and sat on the couch. She stood staring at him.
"thats it? Just im sorry?" he looked over his shoulder, and she held back tears. She had always felt in love with him. She needed him to feel really sorry. Just then the phone rang. He lifted it out of its cradle into his long slender fingers.
"hello? Um yeah, no. are you sure you have the right person? no. um...ya...no. Ok bye." he let the phone drop on the table. "its for you." she walked slowly to the table and lifted the receiver to her ear.
"hello?"

I'm back!!

so ya ive been away a long time...not like anyone is reading this! anyway HEY!! so i have a problem. the guy i like is back with his twenty year old boy friend, AAAHHH! and i realt hate it cause i liked him sence like july, and im so pissed hes with this twenty year old. I hate that he likes her, that sounds so bitchy. but i really like him.